Flannel

Oh it's winter finally, that means lots and lots of flannel. Very excited. My job knocked me down to $9 a couple weeks ago, so that's been pretty damn lame. I've been trying to go out more, drinking more is what is happening! Found some old polorids of Carly and I from Lubbock times, wow were we chubby! I miss Carly a lot, really wish she was hear in Austin. Would have helped with all this stress I've been going through. I've been seriously broke, it's really no fun. I've had to borrow a lot of money from Grandma. I think I'm up to owing her around $1,000.Ugh. Whatever, It'll get better; it has to. I'm still a magnet for slackers, I'm pretty sure that'll never change. I came to the realization that I've got to stop dating Hipsters. They are no bueno. If I want to keep my goal of getting married in the next 2 years, I really need to start dating for reals. Easier said than done. The boys that say they hate flaky people, are the biggest flakes themselves. I have learned that. Also these guys play games. I'm sick of it. Just get to the fucking point. Weither you like me is pretty damn easy to decided. It's a yes or no question. Stop fucking leading me on. It's getting annoying. One minute they like me, the next they don't. But wait, give em' a day or two and they will decided they like me again. One little boy in particular. Then you get the ones that have no time for me; the least needy girl in the world. What finally you find one that is pretty great and of course I screw it up. Blahhh. Then you have the boys that are just friends. Wonderful. I prefer guy friends over girls. Oh but wait they have to go and ruin a simple friendship and start liking me. So maybe booze was the start of it, but still. Lame. Men are LAME. I had a dream the other night that I was dating a girl. When I woke up, I didn't totally hate the idea. Wonder why!