Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving just passed, had a nice time at M&R's with Carly. That was our 5th Thanksgiving together. She left today, miss her already. Didn't get to spend much time with her, but Christmas is fast approaching. It's finally getting cold outside, super excited about that. My grandma sent me a text today, telling me she read all my blog entries! haha glad most of them are modest. I tried making a video blog last night. No bueno. I sounded like a slightly challenged, 12 year old girl, from the white trash south. Ugh. I'll stick to typing my thoughts. For everyone's sake. I'm having drinks with Tyler tonight @Dog and Duck, hopefully Jack will join us. I want to get Tyler's opinion on him. He is just super quite, so we'll see. Well Tyler is super quite also, so maybe they will fall in love. I'd be cool with that! I get to see my Pawpa in a week. Very excited. My dads girl friend listed Autumn as her daughter on Facebook. I think it's so great that Autumn has a good woman role model in her life. That is what she needs right now. It's almost December, so crazy. December means I should get my $3/hr at work yet and hopefully I'll be getting my tattoo. I'm so excited for it. It's beautiful. I think in the new year I'm going to start looking for a better job. I really need to find something that has to do with fashion. Need more money. I've got to get my license soon, so I can get a car. I really want the Honda Fit, it's quite amazing, but it'd be like $300 a month. Boo. End this with a short rant of how I hate flaky people, I hate when people are short with me, and I hate the taste of peanuts in my mouth.

Life is divine chaos. Embrace it. Forgive yourself. Breathe. And enjoy the ride.

Quite possibly one of my favorite quotes ever.

Beautiful girl I might foster

NEFF

Carly will be here tomorrow. I'm super super excited. Even though I am super poor right now, things seem to be looking up a bit. It was weird all of a sudden, I felt happier. I've been doing better at work, so that helps. I came to the realization today that I need to stop worrying about dating right now. I really need to completely focus on myself. I don't need boys getting in my way. It helps that I don't see anything going anywhere with some of these gents. I may be fostering a pup. Pretty excited! I love animals and would put my dogs lives before mine. They are my everything. My coworker had a masquerade party Saturday night. I had semi-drunkin' sex with her roommate. Bwahaha . Whatever, add him to the list. Fuck what people think of me, I love myself more than I love anyone, and I am happy with who I am. Fuck everyone that has a problem with me.

Flannel

Oh it's winter finally, that means lots and lots of flannel. Very excited. My job knocked me down to $9 a couple weeks ago, so that's been pretty damn lame. I've been trying to go out more, drinking more is what is happening! Found some old polorids of Carly and I from Lubbock times, wow were we chubby! I miss Carly a lot, really wish she was hear in Austin. Would have helped with all this stress I've been going through. I've been seriously broke, it's really no fun. I've had to borrow a lot of money from Grandma. I think I'm up to owing her around $1,000.Ugh. Whatever, It'll get better; it has to. I'm still a magnet for slackers, I'm pretty sure that'll never change. I came to the realization that I've got to stop dating Hipsters. They are no bueno. If I want to keep my goal of getting married in the next 2 years, I really need to start dating for reals. Easier said than done. The boys that say they hate flaky people, are the biggest flakes themselves. I have learned that. Also these guys play games. I'm sick of it. Just get to the fucking point. Weither you like me is pretty damn easy to decided. It's a yes or no question. Stop fucking leading me on. It's getting annoying. One minute they like me, the next they don't. But wait, give em' a day or two and they will decided they like me again. One little boy in particular. Then you get the ones that have no time for me; the least needy girl in the world. What finally you find one that is pretty great and of course I screw it up. Blahhh. Then you have the boys that are just friends. Wonderful. I prefer guy friends over girls. Oh but wait they have to go and ruin a simple friendship and start liking me. So maybe booze was the start of it, but still. Lame. Men are LAME. I had a dream the other night that I was dating a girl. When I woke up, I didn't totally hate the idea. Wonder why!