Don't Feed the Fear

An old woman was teaching her grandchildren about life.

She said to them, “A fight is going on inside me… it is a terrible fight between two wolves.

One wolf represents fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, hatefulness, and lies.

The other stands for joy, peace, love, hope, humbleness, kindness, friendship, generosity, faith, and truth.

This same fight is going on inside of you, and inside every other person, too.”

The children thought about it for a minute. Then one child asked her,

“Which wolf will win?”

The old woman replied…

“The one you feed.”

Hugs

Sometimes when you cry you just want someone there to hug you and tell you everything is going to be alright. This is the only time I wish I had a mom around. Not even on Mothers day do I miss her, but some how several days later I find myself crying alone in my room over problems I have. That is when I find myself wanting my mommie. What a simple thing it is; even child like to want your mom. I can picture a little kid crying over a scrapped knee and mom running over to comfort them. Tell them it'll be okay. Kiss the scratch and make it all better. Where is the picture of the mom helping the grown child with their scratches? Are you ever too old to need your mothers help?

I think we all just want to be wanted.

I have found the love of my life....MYSELF. I have written plenty of times about how someone has pissed me off, made me cry, or has screwed me over. Done and Done. I keep realizing I should be the only one effecting my mood. Easier said then done.

2012 has been a huge growing year for me. I'm finally taking hold of my life and getting up the nerve to actually make life plans. Even if some of them are silly like a llama farm or creating a clothing line for homeless people. At least I'm trying to follow through with stuff.

I'm finding some control over myself and over my life. I think I might finally be finding reason in my life.

FINDING MY WAY..... ONE STEP AT A TIME.