December

Tonight is my works Christmas party. Pretty excited about it. We got employee reviews yesterday, basically was a paper telling me I sucked at my job. Thanks! Whatever. Gris Gris is fitting in well. The dogs and him play all the time. It's hilarious. I got my nose pierced today, it's just a stud for now and in the next couple months I'll be able to get a hoop. Carly thinks hoops are trashy. I guess I'm trashy then. She comes next week; I am really excited. I can't wait for this year to be over with and hoping it ends on a good note. This has been a really hard year for me; more than anyone knows. I have had great days and a lot of bad ones. I have finally be able to admit to myself I'm actually depressed. Stress about money is the biggest cause. I can handle everything else. I'm also finally admitting to myself that I have a lot of built up anger towards a lot of people; but as I have always done, I hold everything in until I one day explode. I don't want to be like that. I want 2011 to be better; to be easier. Making changes; little by little. I'm happy at the moment, especially when I don't think about shit. Not the way to go; I just want to get all the "shit" out of my life.