Be a Better Person

Yesterday I started listening to this amazing musician; Trevor Hall. I think he has changed my life. Seriously I have never been so inspired to be a better person. His lyrics are amazing and so up lifting. They just make me feel so happy. I'm continuously struggling to be always be happy. In the last couple months it has gotten a lot better thanks to decreasing a lot of my stress. I'm even started to be a lot less angry; that's always nice. After the shit storm happened in January I've finally getting back to normal. He even finally apologized. It was a weak excuse, but better than nothing. Wants to be friends with me. Still don't know how I feel about that. I think it's finally time to start working on my New Year resolustion. I need to start saving money; especially once I get a job. I've been working out more and that gives me much more energy. I also spent all day yesterday organizing the house. It' looks awesome. I need to be cleaner and more organized. Need to have less stuff and live a simpler life. I have been really good about not drinking as much. I'm really proud of myself for recognizing I could possibly have a problem in the future and nicking it in the butt. Sasha has decided to bite in one spot so much that now there is a huge wound. It's so gross looking.

"Love all serve all and create no sorrow"

Humbug

Seriously yesterday was one of the worst days I've had in awhile. I got super lost up North, hit a car with my bike, and it just got worse. Decided to turn my phone off for like 3 hours, turn it on to see people texting me freaking out that I wasn't answering them. Also someone has decided to talk shit about me at my old job. Really are you that sad about your life that you feel the need to talk shit about stuff you don't even know about. Please get over yourself. The night ended with an argument and some booze. Can't complain about the booze part :) I'm just over a lot of stuff and people. I've been trying to meet new people and trying not to do the same shit all the time. I'm sick of downtown and the people that hang out there. I'm just done with the bull shit and anyone that gives me any shit I'm just going to wash my hands of them. Simple life motto.

Order

Finally finding some order in my life, thanks to some pretty cool people. I still haven't found a job yet, but I'm trying not to stress about it; or really anything in life. Stress is what kind of destroyed me last year. I really don't want to get back to that. Last year was pretty awful for the most part. I'm trying to be better about stuff this year. Saving money and not partying as much. Think both of those will help a lot. I just finally getting my personal life back in order, hopefully I don't screw it up! I'm super happy how things are happening and hopefully they continue to get better. I've realized that I am my own worst enemy and at the same time my biggest fan. I'm the only person that can truely screw myself over.

Translation

Google translate makes me very happy. haha. Super helpful. Ahh I got the most amazing messenger bag today. Has UFO's beaming up cows in the inside. So rad. I finally starting to think about what I really want to do with my life and how to achieve it. First I really want to write a childrens book and I really want to starting writing. I also am going to start trying to figure out how to get a business grant to open a clothing store/bar! Life seems like it's about to start falling into place. I've just got to find a job! I've been really happy lately. I'm happy about that. Jenny found two cats a couple days ago and after trying to find their home, we've decided to keep them Meet Sailor and Linux. So cute and super crazy. They are getting along with the dogs after a couple days of not really liking them. All of them are sleeping on my bed right now. So damn cute. I've been thinking about going back to school and getting my associates degree in something. I'm not sure though; we'll see. I think I'm going to start writing stuff and sending it to newspapers or something like that. I'm really interested in writing about music or fashion. Both would be amazing.

Sicky Icky

So I've had allergies the past couple days or maybe a cold. Idk. I'm finally starting to kind of clear up. Yayy. I have yet to find a job and am starting to kind of worry. I'm running low on money and becoming increasingly more and more bored each day. I've got to find something; anything. I'm starting to date a little bit again, but I miss him terribly; which doesn't help. I know eventually I'll get over it, but this one really killed me. Gosh damn him; if I ever see him again, I'd love to give him a piece of my mind and my fist in his face. If I can find a fairly well paying job I see myself being really happy with my life. Jenny and I took in two stray cats. Oh my gosh are they so damn cute. I've started having a weakness for cats. Crap. Hopefully we can find their owners or a good home soon. I've got a new appreciation for knee high socks. Love them.

Quote of the Day!

Love isn't always a novel, sometimes it ends up being a short story.

Sweet Nothings from Strangers

I love getting little compliments from strangers. Not in a creepy "hey, you're cute, lets sleep together" way, but when someone gives you a compliment not expecting anything in return. So thank you 7-11 guy for telling me I looked nice tonight, even though I don't! I like him, he is always friendly and he doesn't card me when I buy booze. :) So cheers to you for making my day.