Translation

Google translate makes me very happy. haha. Super helpful. Ahh I got the most amazing messenger bag today. Has UFO's beaming up cows in the inside. So rad. I finally starting to think about what I really want to do with my life and how to achieve it. First I really want to write a childrens book and I really want to starting writing. I also am going to start trying to figure out how to get a business grant to open a clothing store/bar! Life seems like it's about to start falling into place. I've just got to find a job! I've been really happy lately. I'm happy about that. Jenny found two cats a couple days ago and after trying to find their home, we've decided to keep them Meet Sailor and Linux. So cute and super crazy. They are getting along with the dogs after a couple days of not really liking them. All of them are sleeping on my bed right now. So damn cute. I've been thinking about going back to school and getting my associates degree in something. I'm not sure though; we'll see. I think I'm going to start writing stuff and sending it to newspapers or something like that. I'm really interested in writing about music or fashion. Both would be amazing.

Sicky Icky

So I've had allergies the past couple days or maybe a cold. Idk. I'm finally starting to kind of clear up. Yayy. I have yet to find a job and am starting to kind of worry. I'm running low on money and becoming increasingly more and more bored each day. I've got to find something; anything. I'm starting to date a little bit again, but I miss him terribly; which doesn't help. I know eventually I'll get over it, but this one really killed me. Gosh damn him; if I ever see him again, I'd love to give him a piece of my mind and my fist in his face. If I can find a fairly well paying job I see myself being really happy with my life. Jenny and I took in two stray cats. Oh my gosh are they so damn cute. I've started having a weakness for cats. Crap. Hopefully we can find their owners or a good home soon. I've got a new appreciation for knee high socks. Love them.

Quote of the Day!

Love isn't always a novel, sometimes it ends up being a short story.

Sweet Nothings from Strangers

I love getting little compliments from strangers. Not in a creepy "hey, you're cute, lets sleep together" way, but when someone gives you a compliment not expecting anything in return. So thank you 7-11 guy for telling me I looked nice tonight, even though I don't! I like him, he is always friendly and he doesn't card me when I buy booze. :) So cheers to you for making my day.

Fuck Shit

So I'm so pissed right now, TWC just called me and told me the reasons my bitch manager fired me. All were false. She is trying to make me look bad so I don't get unemployment. Seriously would love to key her car right now. When they asked her if I have ever done my job well, she said no. Such bull shit; I was one of the best sales people there. I'm so mad. If I don't get unemployment because of her I don't even know what I'm going to do. Seriously hate some people. And of course TWC can't just talk to my other manager; the one that likes me, since he isn't the one that fired me. Whatever. I'll figure it out. I just need to find a job asap. There just really isn't anything semi good out there. Ugh I hate my life some times. My birthday is tomorrow. Woot.

Mopping the grim away

I'm finally getting rid of the grim don't want to be negative this year, but fuck it. Here is the story: I started seeing this guy at the beginning of November and we talked all the time. He was the first person I opened up to since Daniel. Everything was great until about two weeks ago. That's when everything started falling apart. I literally don't know what happened. He started being a real big ass hole and didn't ever understand why I was upset. Usually when a boy is rude to me, I say fuck it and move on, but this one was different. He told me he wanted to marry me and that he loved me. I had strong feelings for him. Everyone thought I was crazy and moving too fast; which I was. So in the last couple weeks we have drifted apart, but I figured it would get better, kept hoping and hoping. On New years eve was the last day I spoke to him. I've tried calling, texting, facebook chat; nothing. He is totally ignoring me and for what reason. I have no idea; I didn't do anything wrong. This is what makes me so damn sad. The last couple days I have cried way too much. Finally today I gave up; deleted from my phone and finally just now had Jenny delete him from my facebook. I felt like I could breath again. It was weird. I still want to cry, but I'll get over it. I'm sad, miss him, but it is what it is. Mopping my house and mopping the shit out of my life. This is going to be a good year. Save more money and have better sex. Those are the new year resolutions.

December

Tonight is my works Christmas party. Pretty excited about it. We got employee reviews yesterday, basically was a paper telling me I sucked at my job. Thanks! Whatever. Gris Gris is fitting in well. The dogs and him play all the time. It's hilarious. I got my nose pierced today, it's just a stud for now and in the next couple months I'll be able to get a hoop. Carly thinks hoops are trashy. I guess I'm trashy then. She comes next week; I am really excited. I can't wait for this year to be over with and hoping it ends on a good note. This has been a really hard year for me; more than anyone knows. I have had great days and a lot of bad ones. I have finally be able to admit to myself I'm actually depressed. Stress about money is the biggest cause. I can handle everything else. I'm also finally admitting to myself that I have a lot of built up anger towards a lot of people; but as I have always done, I hold everything in until I one day explode. I don't want to be like that. I want 2011 to be better; to be easier. Making changes; little by little. I'm happy at the moment, especially when I don't think about shit. Not the way to go; I just want to get all the "shit" out of my life.