Flannel

Oh it's winter finally, that means lots and lots of flannel. Very excited. My job knocked me down to $9 a couple weeks ago, so that's been pretty damn lame. I've been trying to go out more, drinking more is what is happening! Found some old polorids of Carly and I from Lubbock times, wow were we chubby! I miss Carly a lot, really wish she was hear in Austin. Would have helped with all this stress I've been going through. I've been seriously broke, it's really no fun. I've had to borrow a lot of money from Grandma. I think I'm up to owing her around $1,000.Ugh. Whatever, It'll get better; it has to. I'm still a magnet for slackers, I'm pretty sure that'll never change. I came to the realization that I've got to stop dating Hipsters. They are no bueno. If I want to keep my goal of getting married in the next 2 years, I really need to start dating for reals. Easier said than done. The boys that say they hate flaky people, are the biggest flakes themselves. I have learned that. Also these guys play games. I'm sick of it. Just get to the fucking point. Weither you like me is pretty damn easy to decided. It's a yes or no question. Stop fucking leading me on. It's getting annoying. One minute they like me, the next they don't. But wait, give em' a day or two and they will decided they like me again. One little boy in particular. Then you get the ones that have no time for me; the least needy girl in the world. What finally you find one that is pretty great and of course I screw it up. Blahhh. Then you have the boys that are just friends. Wonderful. I prefer guy friends over girls. Oh but wait they have to go and ruin a simple friendship and start liking me. So maybe booze was the start of it, but still. Lame. Men are LAME. I had a dream the other night that I was dating a girl. When I woke up, I didn't totally hate the idea. Wonder why!

Last night

FOUR LOKO + HEAVY METAL= GOOD TIMES.

Drawings....

I drew a picture for a friend. It's pretty awesome.

Back to the daily grind....

So today was the last day of my week vacation. I have mixed feelings about going back to work. At least I won't be so damn bored. New Orleans was amazing. I didn't expect the French Quarters could be so pretty. I seriously didn't want to leave. Tiffany, Jen, and I has a blast. I drank too much one night. Oh well. Everyone said not the drink the "Hurricane" and anything in a test tube. I did both! Apparently one of the shot girls at the bar tried to kiss me. I told her she wasn't pretty enough. Haha. I don't remember this. Also I guess I saw some guy that looked like Shaggy from Scooby Doo, so i went around the whole night asking everyone where my Scooby Doo boyfriend was! I also split my drink in the bathroom and the big ass black lady bathroom attendant wasn't very happy with me. Oops. I've been super stressed about life in general, but especially about money. My spending habits have got to change. I've been spending WAY too much money on food. Last month is was almost $500. That's insane. This month I owe some money to people, but it's going to be a better money. I'm going to come out ahead at the end, that's the goal. Favorite quote of the day....

"Life is divine chaos. Embrace it. Forgive yourself. Breathe. And enjoy the ride."

Beyoncé - Me, Myself And I

ME, MYSELF, AND I

I've slowly but surely learning that I've only got myself in this world. Yeah I have friends and family, but in the end they could betray me. I see nothing wrong with having the idea of only looking out for yourself. I don't think it's selfish. I've always put others feelings before mine and I'm done. I've got a proclamation to myself. I've got to do me. I need to cut the drama out of my life, which is always easier said then done. Me, Myself, and I, that's all I've got in the end.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4S37SGxZSMc